30 Candles

I pinched myself today, but no I didn't wake up from a dream......today has actually arrived. I'm 30 years young! I was approaching this day with a lot of anticipation wondering how I would actually feel on this particular day. Would I have a mini melt down? Would I experience an early mid life crisis?! Honestly I wasn't sure, as I remember thinking in my early 20's that by 30 I had better have my life figured out, or else. So this morning I ask myself, "Or else, what?!"

I admit that I had a lot of expectations for myself in terms of what I thought the picture of my life should be at the age of 30 and as I sit here reflecting on the past 30 years I am extremely happy at what where I am, what I've accomplished and what I have experienced that has brought my life to this point. And even though the picture I had for myself at a young age is somewhat different, I couldn't be any happier or grateful.

Though this year has been tough, emotionally and physically draining (for both my husband and myself), I went to bed lastnight - the last night of my 20's! - reflecting on the fact that I wouldn't change a moment of it. I wouldn't ask to be anywhere than where I am now, I wouldn't even ask to be in my 20's again - as I feel stronger, healthier and happier than I have ever felt. And I know that all the past moments, experiences and even difficulties are what shaped me into the person I am today. At 30, I feel better than I did at 20. At 30, I will be a college graduate, work for a wonderful CrossFit gym (CF 254), mommy of the cutest strawberry blonde fur ball, wife of a soldier and part of a beautiful marriage. I don't look at turning 30 as a scary turning point, I look to my 30's with great anticipation of what great things are to come! Bring it on!